"Now And Then"
You see it was drawn easy, my services for a rewarding fee.
Never thinking then of the hundreds I've hurt.
Their morals and family so deserted, you see,
Back then my mind was conned, caught in a pipe dream.
Understand my path set forth from a struggling background.
Mom always worked her hardest maintaining her four hounds.
Scared and afraid that my own child's future was at stake
Quickly reacting was where I made my biggest mistake.
Filled with dillusions I fell, I fell deep in my grave
Carried by deceits devouring waves.
I can still remember her nights in tears of rage
Never giving up even with her life in a ruthless maze.
Took a harsh lesson for me to understand life.
What once was taken granted stabbed with a knife.
I've towed along loved ones throughout my experiences,
Placed them in torturous wars when it all was needless.
Now and then I failed to think deep clear inside.
Now and then I rather maintain a modest existence.
Now and then never again will I barter my freedom