"Merry Go Round" lyrics - ROYCE DA 5'9"

ROYCE DA 5'9"
"Merry Go Round"
(Ryan Montgomery)

I have tried in vein
Never had success
So it seems my life is nothing but a mess
I have lost, my only friends
Now it seems I have to start again
Merry go round

My life's been goin' around 'n' round since ninety five
Went from goin' somewhere about to die
Went from callin' my chick a chicken
'Cause she look like she got poultry around her thighs
To callin' your piece a chicken
'Cause she got no teeth and she got crow feet around her eyes
How hard are y'all? I got a heart the size of Arkansas
Count to five, these birds gon' hit the ground
And they ain't from out the Sky
Went from havin' an outta-this-world-flow,
To doin' the video, doin' the coon dance
To watchin' my good friend Eminem winnin' a moonman
I remember 'cause I was in New York with all of my boys to start shit
Lettin' 'em stay with me, long story short,
They tore up my corporate apartment
Went from bein a kid addicted to basketball
To bein' an ignorent nigga addicted to alcohol
Round and round we go is how this movie would end
Self-proclaimed King of my city,
Not really just truly the King of losin' a friend
Who would've thought this goof
In the park who's true to his ark would lose
Or win just by givin' his thoughts 'n' views

You would hear that Ryan's skilled
Might even hear Ryan kills
You will never hear Ryan steals
Here to put the "I" in ill
My mind is still
Like a merry-go-round spill
Like leavin' only guns to my kids when I'm killed
I got an iron will
Intellect as ion I don' went from high on pills
To triumph, to hidin' from bills, to buyin' buildin's
Then I went from writin' for Dre
To wonderin' if my head was on straight on the sidelines
Feelin' I forgot about listenin' to "Forgot About Dre"
From there I went to about a bottle a day
Tellin' who we know "Get outta my face!"
Okay I know what Kino said about Dre
I look at Kino to this day like that was a stupid mistake
But if it wasn't for him doin' that, what would I be doin' today?
If it wasn't for Cassius sayin' that he gonna beat my ass
Then me and Em probably wouldn't be laughin' 'bout us gettin' past it
If it wasn't for me bein outcasted I woulda never been on the underground
Rappin' wit slaughterhouse!