"Letter To God" lyrics - HOLE

"Letter To God"
(Linda Perry)

Dear God I'm writing this letter to you.
'Cause I don't have a clue, can you help me?
I'm sittin' here, simply trying to figure out.
What my life's all about, can you tell me?

I never wanted to be, the person you see
Can you tell me who I am?
I always wanted to die, but you kept me here, alive.
Can you tell me who I am?

I lie awake conducting this symphony, that you have gifted to me
But I can't ever sleep.
Don't be mad, but I get weak inside, and I start to fall apart
'Cause I feel nothing.

I never wanted to be, some kind of comic relief.
Please show me who I am.
I've been tortured and scorned, since the day that I was born.
But I don't know who I am.

And I thank you man for everything.
Sorry I'm so frightened about all of it,
But I wish I could give you more.

But all the lights are shining down on me,
And I feel intimidated by it all.

I never wanted to be
The person you see, but thank you.

Oh god please tell me now
Are you disappointed or are you proud?

I'm so sorry I'm so weak
And I turned into a freak
But I don't know ANYTHING, ANYTHING!

I've lost all self-esteem
Five billion, everything

Oh god please tell me now
God please tell me now
'Cause I feel nothing

Oh dear god I'm writing this letter to you
I am coming unglued
Please help me.